I'm sitting on a picnic bench in Discovery Bay and there's something I need to do. Just do, that's what my mind says, but the body doesn't comply. The thing I know I have to do I'm too afraid to do. It's basically boils down to that. I could give every excuse in the world to not do this, but when it comes down to it, I'm just afraid. So what then? I can't even make the first step necessary to overcome my fear.
Let's take a fear, a fear like a fear of heights for example. How do you overcome a fear of heights? You expose yourself intensively, over a period of time, to heights. Working your way up from small heights to larger heights. Slowly, your body comes to realize that the fear is irrational and releases its hold on you. It takes time and it takes dedication, but it happens eventually. It's a body fear in that, any rationalization you come up with that the fear is unjustified does nothing to change the fact that when you're up there on the ledge, you'll be scared shitless. It's only through continuous exposure does your body "change its mind."
Anyways, this is what I need to do. I'm committed to doing it. But what is the first step? I suppose it's all about the feeling I have. I can measure the level of fear based on my body's reaction. Or perhaps the best is to have someone throw me into that situation and always be pushing me. Create external structures to ensure that I'm always on the edge of what I can handle without becoming demoralized...
What's the solution? Be committed and persistent and in the end, do something.
